If you’ve been hanging around PHC for a while, you will recognize the letter that follows as the difficult transition from the security of childhood to the adventure of adolescence.
You know how teenager are at one moment begging you to help them, love them, understand them and the next moment they are telling you to f-ck off? I’ve explained that as the part of them that still wants to be a dependent child battling with the part of them that wants to be an independent adult.
This letter from a teen who has just made the initial transition shows how strong that draw back to childhood can be, and how painful the loss of that time of life can be.
I am just blown away by how articulate this young person is about their feelings…
Im growing up and it makes me so mad and I can’t stop feeling sad and angry about how much I changed?
I will be turning 15 soon. yes I know im still young but Im so much different then when I just turned 13.
I was this little immature geeky Anime,Manga,Video game, Starkid, Cosplay (costume play) obsessed kid who loved dressing up as characters were ever I went and also going to cons. My life revolved around those and my one best friend in the whole world Jeremy. We used to do everything together we had one week sleepovers and we really were immature making videos of us cosplaying going to fairs and being idiots playing light sabers in the middle of the woods at 3:00am We were never your adverage kids .
Now Im in 8th grade and Im so different! I still like Anime but im not as obbsesed with it like I used too and the other stuff I don’t even do even do anymore I never see my friend anymore because we live so far apart Im not even Immature anymore.I found my old computer in there and there were so many videos of me and jeremy on there from summer 2010 and I started to cry I really miss those days.
Now im so different I act different and everything I don’t even look the same! I remember the day I stepped into my 7th grade class room I remember that day exactly as it was. im gonna be a freshman I get angry about it so much I punch walls and everything. Also I never really had a childhood my childhood started in 2010 when I met jeremy if you knew my background story you would know why.
In 2 years my life completly changed and I will never be the same and it pisses me off so much. I want to play light sabers I want to talk about starkid I want to cosplay I want to get looks from people when I go to the mall or park or just town dressed up as Naruto Uzumaki I miss being called Kiba Kun want to be that person again.
I hate who I am now. I can’t stop crying and being angry with everyone.
Also should I delete the videos from my computer and how can I stop being like this? I cut myself and everything.



